اللهم أنت ربي لا إله إلا أنت
خلقتني وأنا عبدك
و أنا على عهدك ما ووعدك ما استطعت
أعوذ بك من شر ما صنعت
أبوء لك بنعمتك علي
و أبوء بذنبي فاغفر لي
فإنه لا يغفر الذنوب إلا أنت
Allahumma anta Rabbii Laa ilaha illaa anta
Khalaqtanii wa ana 3abduka
wa ana 3ala 3ahdika wa wa'3dika maa astato'3 tu
A'3uzu bika min sharri ma sona'3 tu
Abuu ulaka bini3'matika alayya
Abuu ubizanbi Faghfir lii
Fa innahu laa yaghfiruzzunuba illa anta
Ya Allah, You are my Lord
none have the right to be worshipped but You
You have created me and i am your slave, your worshipper
and i am faithful to my covenant and my promise as far as i am able
i seek Your Refuge from the evil of what i have done
i acknowledge before You all the favors You have bestowed upon me
and i confess all my sins to You
forgive me
for no one can forgive sins except You
(Ya Allah)
Amin, Amin, Ya Rabbal Al Amin
AUTHOR
edri 1979 malaysian born currently in japan
Tuesday, September 09, 2008
berkat ramadhan
Bismillahir Rahmanir Rahim, In the Name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful.
Assalamualaikum kawan2, Alhamdulillah, indeed all praises be to Allah.
before coming here, to the island of japan, i had to attend the japanese matriculation center (jmc) for 2 years to learn the language.
during those time, as i was not as friendly with everyone, i did't mind when people wanna come and talk to me. most of the time i just let them share with me, and let them go their way. when they come again to talk, i'd listen again and then, let them go away again. that was how i was, maybe still am, i don't really shun people, but i don't really open up either.
during the first year of jmc in 1997, because the japanese program started early: even before the spm results were announced, some of my fellow friends, they opted to quit the program for another after the result was announced.
one of them would be a good friend of mine, anas. we didn't talk much when we were in jmc, only after he quit do we talk, never face to face but through the phone, in the wee hours of the night, and the usual subject would be? me giving him advices on how to win the heart of the girl he liked back then.
we lost contact after some time, but Alhamdulillah, he found me on friendster and things just picked up from there. it was the usual "guano mung?" and such.
until recently.
since facebook, i've become a lazy a$$ checking up my friendster account, but that one day, i decided to check it out and? i found an unread message from him. turned out? he's coming to japan for 2 weeks! and he was asking for my contact number. i gave it to him, telling him to ring me up once he's here.
i know you guys already know this, but i have to admit, that lately i am mostly busy with work and due dates, i didn't think much of him coming.
and as for ramadhan: i willed to do as much as my stamina allows me to. i didn't know if i was gonna make the most of ramadhan as i should have, due to workload and fatigue.
but anas came and mang haiiii, he kept ringing and ringing and ringing me. so we met up and had dinner together last wednesday.
i didn't think i'd be spending so much time with him, and i didn't plan to, but after that, since last saturday to monday morning, i did spend my time with him, along with akuie.
we ushered him to disneyland, machida and all the other places he wanted to go, shopping for things he wanted to bring home to his wife & kids.
talked alot we did too! we didn't plan it that way, but Masya Allah, all the times we talked, it'd mostly circulate around Him and Rasulullah SAW, and other islamic topics, even when the topic started out with something else unrelated.
really! start with anything, it could be at a cafe that selling coffee and tea along with cognag on the menu, or at a japanese traditional tempura shop, we always end up having tazkirah. the Might of Allah, the Will of Allah, trully, Alhamdulillah, all praises be to Allah!
and the ilmu he shared! Masya Allah, he made me nganga all the time. new things, new stuffs! things my short akal couldn't reach before. trully, there's just SOOOOO MUCH of Allah's knowledge i haven't even started to learn!
all this, my tergerak hati nak check friendster, him coming over at this time of the year, when the world almost got my feet again, ALL of THIS, they're all from Allah, and i am deeply grateful.
Allah benarkan, Allah hitungkan, Allah says Be, and Be it will. Alhamdulillah...
monday morning, me and akuie and anas was sitting on my veranda, a few hours to fajr, and anas? he was telling us about Rasulullah SAW's Sakaratul Maut.
he said he couldn't tell the whole jist of it because of the sadness and fear, and told me he will send over the document from malaysia.
i couldn't wait and looked it up today, and i cried like a baby.
so here is some ilmu i learned from him, that i hope i can share with you.
it was new to me, it may not be new to you, but still, as a reminder, for we forget too easily.
Ada sebuah kisah tentang cinta yang sebenar2 cinta yang dicontohkan Allah melalui kehidupan Rasul-Nya.
Pagi itu, walaupun langit telah mulai menguning, burung2 gurun enggan mengepakkan sayap.
Pagi itu, Rasulullah dengan suara terbatas memberikan khutbah:
"Wahai umatku, kita semua ada dalam kekuasaan Allah dan cinta kasih-Nya. Maka taati dan bertakwalah kepada-Nya. Kuwariskan dua perkara pada kalian: Al Qur'an dan sunnahku. Barang siapa mencintai sunnahku, bererti mencintai aku dan kelak orang-orang yang mencintaiku, akan masuk syurga bersama2 aku."
Khutbah singkat itu diakhiri dengan pandangan mata Rasulullah yang tenang dan penuh minat menatap sahabatnya satu persatu.
Abu Bakar menatap mata itu dengan berkaca-kaca, Umar dadanya naik turun menahan nafas dan tangisnya. Usman menghela nafas panjang dan Ali menundukkan kepalanya dalam2. Isyarat itu telah datang, saatnya sudah tiba.
"Rasulullah akan meninggalkan kita semua," keluh hati semua sahabat kala itu.
Manusia tercinta itu, hampir selesai menunaikan tugasnya didunia. Tanda-tanda itu semakin kuat, tatkala Ali dan Fadhal dengan cergas menangkap Rasulullah yang berkeadaan lemah dan goyah ketika turun dari mimbar.
Disaat itu, kalau mampu, seluruh sahabat yang hadir di sana pasti akan menahan detik-detik berlalu.
Matahari kian tinggi, tapi pintu rumah Rasulullah masih tertutup. Sedang didalamnya, Rasulullah sedang terbaring lemah dengan keningnya yang berkeringat dan membasahi pelepah kurma yang menjadi alas tidurnya.
Tiba-tiba dari luar pintu terdengar seorang yang berseru mengucapkan salam. "Bolehkah saya masuk?" tanyanya.
Tapi Fatimah tidak mengizinkannya masuk, "Maafkanlah, ayahku sedang demam," kata Fatimah yang membalikkan badan dan menutup pintu.
Kemudian ia kembali menemani ayahnya yang ternyata sudah membuka mata dan bertanya pada Fatimah, "Siapakah itu wahai anakku?"
"Tak tahulah ayahku, orang sepertinya baru sekali ini aku melihatnya," tutur Fatimah lembut.
Lalu, Rasulullah menatap puterinya itu dengan pandangan yang menggetarkan. Seolah-olah bahagian demi bahagian wajah anaknya itu hendak dikenang.
"Ketahuilah, dialah yang menghapuskan kenikmatan sementara, dialah yang memisahkan pertemuan di dunia. Dialah malakul maut," kata Rasulullah.
Fatimah pun menahan ledakkan tangisnya.
Malaikat maut datang menghampiri, tapi Rasulullah menanyakan kenapa Jibril tidak ikut sama menyertainya. Kemudian dipanggilah Jibril yang sebelumnya sudah bersiap di atas langit dunia menyambut ruh kekasih Allah dan penghulu dunia ini.
"Jibril, jelaskan apa hakku nanti di hadapan Allah?" Tanya Rasululllah dengan suara yang amat lemah.
"Pintu-pintu langit telah terbuka, para malaikat telah menanti ruhmu. Semua syurga terbuka lebar menanti kedatanganmu," kata Jibril.
Tapi itu ternyata tidak membuatkan Rasulullah lega, matanya masih penuh kecemasan.
"Engkau tidak senang mendengar khabar ini?" tanya Jibril lagi.
"Khabarkan kepadaku bagaimana nasib umatku kelak?" "Jangan khuatir, wahai Rasul Allah, aku pernah mendengar Allah berfirman kepadaku: 'Kuharamkan syurga bagi siapa saja, kecuali umat Muhammad telah berada di dalamnya," kata Jibril.
Detik-detik semakin dekat, saatnya Izrail melakukan tugas. Perlahan ruh Rasulullah ditarik. Nampak seluruh tubuh Rasulullah bersimbah peluh, urat-urat lehernya menegang.
"Jibril, betapa sakit sakaratul maut ini," perlahan Rasulullah mengaduh.
Fatimah terpejam, Ali yang di sampingnya menunduk semakin dalam dan Jibril memalingkan muka.
"Jijikkah kau melihatku, hingga kau palingkan wajahmu Jibril?" tanya Rasulullah pada Malaikat pengantar wahyu itu.
"Siapakah yang sanggup, melihat kekasih Allah direnggut ajal," kata Jibril.
Sebentar kemudian terdengar Rasulullah memekik, kerana sakit yang tidak tertahankan lagi.
"Ya Allah, dahsyat nian maut ini, timpakan saja semua siksa maut ini kepadaku, jangan pada umatku."
Badan Rasulullah mulai dingin, kaki dan dadanya sudah tidak bergerak lagi. Bibirnya bergetar seakan hendak membisikkan sesuatu, Ali segera mendekatkan telinganya.
"Uushiikum bis shalati, wa maa malakat aimanuku" "Peliharalah shalat dan peliharalah orang-orang lemah di antaramu."
Di luar pintu tangis mulai terdengar bersahutan, sahabat saling berpelukan. Fatimah menutupkan tangan di wajahnya, dan Ali kembali mendekatkan telinganya ke bibir Rasulullah yang mulai kebiruan.
Dan, berakhirlah hidup manusia mulia yang memberi sinaran itu.
Kini, mampukah kita mencintai sepertinya?
Allahumma sholli 'ala Muhammad wa baarik wa salim 'alaihi. Betapa cintanya Rasulullah kepada kita. Kirimkan kepada sahabat-sahabat muslim lain agar timbul kesedaran untuk mencintai Allah dan RasulNya, seperti Allah dan Rasulnya mencintai kita.
Kerana sesungguhnya, selain daripada itu hanyalah fana belaka.
"it meant the world to hold a bruising faith now its just a matter of grace"
edri vented out at9/09/2008 09:23:00 PM |
Thursday, September 04, 2008
Ramadhan 1429
Alhamdulillah, indeed all praises are for Allah and Allah alone, as the holy month of Ramadhan, its here again *^-^*
first thing first, mintak maaf banyak2 for the late wish dari edri ^^;
selamat menjalani ibadah puasa kawan2~ semoga ramadhan 1429, memberikan kita keberkatan, keinsafan & kesedaran yang berkekalan insyaAllah~ Aminnn~~ *^-^*
work is as hectic as usual, but insyaAllah, edri akan cuba memenuhi masa dengan ibadah semampu mungkin. and insyaAllah, akan try to share more of the Hadith Qudsi with you guys *^-^*
Hadith Qudsi 13: on the authority of Ady ibn Hatim (may Allah be pleased with him), who said:
i was with the Messenger of Allah (may the blessings and peace of Allah be upon him) and there came to him two men:
one of them was complaining of penury (being very poor), while the other was complaining of brigandry (robbery).
The Messenger of Allah (may the blessings and peace of Allah be upon him) said:
as for brigandry, it will be but a short time before a caravan will [be able to] go out of Mecca without a guard.
as for penury, the Hour (Day of Judgement) will not arrive before one of you takes his charity around without finding anyone to accept it from him.
then (*) one of you will surely stand before Allah, there being no screed between Him and him, nor an interpreter to translate for him.
then He will say to him: Did I not bring you wealth? and he will say: yes. then He will say: Did I not send to you a messenger? and he will say: Yes.
and he will look to his right and will see nothing but Hell-fire, then he will look to his left and will see nothing but Hell-fire, so let each of you protect himself against Hell-fire, be it with even half a date - and if he finds it not, then with a kind word.
(*) i.e. at the time of the Hour.
-related by al-Bukhari.
"it meant the world to hold a bruising faith now its just a matter of grace"
edri vented out at9/04/2008 06:47:00 AM |
Saturday, August 09, 2008
Hadith Qudsi 12: on the authority of Abu Mas'ud al-Ansari (may Allah be pleased with him), who said that the Messenger of Allah (may the blessings and peace of Allah be upon him) said:
a man from among those who were before you was called to account. nothing in the way of good was found for him except that he used to have dealings with people and, being well-to-do, he would order his servants to let off the man in straitened circumstances [from repaying his debt].
he (the Prophet p.b.u.h) said that Allah said: We are worthier than you of that (of being so generous). let him off.
-related by Muslim (also by al-Bukhari and an-Nasa'i).
reminder to self: don't sweat the small stuff, and its all small stuff. big heart edri, big heart.
Ya Allah, show me the way about how to gain a big, spacious, and a generous heart. Aaaamiinnnnnn....
"it meant the world to hold a bruising faith now its just a matter of grace"
edri vented out at8/09/2008 11:35:00 AM |
Sunday, August 03, 2008
bunga api
Bismillahir Rahmanir Rahim.
Assalamualaikum kawan2...
ishk, smalam balik tengok fireworks penat cam nak pensan, but right now? mata celik terang benderang :P
argh. i suck! suck suck suck! i do.
i'm gonna write in malay here, just in case, sebab... saya takmo orang yang paham nihonggo & english bleh paham apa saya tulis kat sini :P
arghhhhhhhh! i suck!
smalam gi tengok bunga api. plan nak gi ngan kawan terdekat sahaja, total 3 orang termasuk saya.
tapi time balik dari kerja kelmarin (jumaat) budak jurutera aplikasi from pengeluar dok tanya2 pasal bunga api tuh. start kol baper la, buat kat maner la, cam sebok nak itot. cam sebokkkkkkkk nak itot gitu.
:P
macam malas nak ajak tapi kesian la plak kan... so, nak tak nak, ajakla. ingatkan kalau ajak2 ayam tak datang la kot... saya mengaku la saya memang berharap sangat dia kensel, tapiiiii... turns out dia datang. argh!
ok. saya ada masalah. masalah saya ialah... saya anti-social.
dulu saya ingat saya tak baper nak kawan ngan orang, sebab saya takut orang or takutkan impressi pertama orang kat saya. (ok... so bm saya tunggang langgang... but saya harap kawan2 paham apa yang saya nak cakap tsk! :P)
tapi sejak kebelakangan nih baru saya pasan. bukannyer la saya takut sangat kat orang, or saya ni pemalu ker apa ker...
masalah saya ialah, saya anti-social. saya tak suka kawan. bukan saya tak suka kawan2 saya, noooo... kawan2 saya, saya saaaaangat suka dan sayang ngan diorang, tapi saya tak suka nak berkawan ngan orang. what i mean is, saya tak suka buat kawan baru.
dan bukan sahaja saya tak suka berkawan ngan orang, saya tak suka bila orang sebok2 nak kawan ngan saya tsk!! saya limash ok??? limash bila orang sebok2 nak kawan ngan saya. cammmm.... oiiii... rilek la brader, sister... keep your distance ok? respect my boundaries ok? saya tak suka kalau tetiba je awak masuk dalam kawasan saya yang saya reserve untuk orang2 tertentu ok??? sesedap jek redah kawasan orang gitu.
tsk tsk tsk!
so masuk akal la kot bila ramai orang kata saya kerek, ek? dulu tak pasan, skang baru pasan :P
so ini adalah satu masalah untuk saya, sebab saya tak suka jadi orang kerek, blagak... tak frenli. cam... argh tak bestnyer akuuuu tsk tsk tsk! kerek gila tanak kawan ngan orang. ingat apa? anak raja ker?
:P
tapiiiii... macam yang saya tulis kat atas la, saya tak sukaaaaaaa sangat bila orang2 yang tak berkenaan tetiba pushy nak kawan ngan saya, trespassing boundaries saya tak pepasal.
bukanla saya tak penah try, seblom ni ada gak time2 yang saya cuba tahan dan bersabar, try gak berkawan ngan orang yang saya takdela nak kawan sangat, tapi kang last2 saya stress!
tak suka tak suka tak suka. tak suka means tak suka la ok?
mostly kenkawan saya yang saya ada skang ni, yang saya suka dan sayang sangat2 ni, adalah sama ada kawan2 dari skolah, or kawan2 yang memula tak kenal, tapi start kenal sikit2 thru here or else where, yang kitorang slowly kenal background & character masing2, berkembang into friendship over time. bukan yang tetiba jek jadik kawan gitu. yang berkembang secara semulajadi.
so malam smalam? mamat tuh sebok nak itot, and dia datang join saya & kawan2 saya tengok bunga api.
masalahnyer, saya bukan baik sangat ngan mamat tuh. and mamat tu mamat dari pihak pengeluar, bukan satu ofis pon. bukan rakan sekerja pon. ok la so kitorang keje sesama seminggu skali, but that is all. keje sesama seminggu skali, ari jumaat dari kol 10 sampai 5 petang. and most of the time, dia bukan buat keje pon. dok congok kat situ, buat keje lain yang tak sepatutnyer. okla, so saya ada issue la ngan mamat tuh. tapi ntah apsal tah mamat tu sebok2 gak join tengok bunga api. argh!
like... patutnyer bunga api tu session saya untuk spend ngan kekawan saya, jadi cam session entertaining orang from kerja lak :P frustrating sungguh!
okla tak kesah la, layan la. one time thing, abis bunga api abis la. puas la ati dia dapat tengok bunga api kot?
tapiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii????? ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh????? tak cukup tengok bunga api, next time nak gi jalan sesama plakkkkk... nak gi nyanyi keroke sesama plakkkkk... nak gi disney sesama laaaaa... etc etc laaaaa...
dah kasik buku lali, nak betis, peha, pinggang, abdomen and so on :P
oi?! what's this?! kenapa over?!
saya bukan kawan baik awak tetiba nak include awak dalam jadual jalan2 sayaaaaa... and most of the time saya bukan leh jalan2 pon, thanks to you sebab awak tak buat keje and keje awak saya kena buat :P kita cuma kerja seminggu skali sesama, yang awak takdela keje sangat pon. sumer faktor2 nih dicampur tolak, saya tak berminat la nak kenkawan ngan awak secara peribadi... and saya taula yang awak tu anak bongsu dari 3 adik bradik, manja satu hal, tapi saya bukan kakak awak la nak bawak awak jalan2 sana sini... awak dah kenapa? awak ni takde kawan lain ker? kenapa kacau saya???
saya mintak maaf banyak2 la, tapi saya tak happy lansung awak nak kawan ngan saya ok? bleh tak jangan kacau saya so that saya leh layan hal saya? saya ada baaaaaanyak lagi hal lain nak layan tau.
huk huk huk.
so camner? kena kawan gak ker? kena ker?
tsk! saya tau la saya ada jugak sedikit childish, (banyak gak kot :P) sebagai seorang orang masyarakat (society person), dah keje kenala membina relationship yang baik dgn orang2 keje, but tolonggggg lah, jangannnnn la paksa saya layan awak on weekends gak. saya nak gak enjoy hari sabtu & ahad saya on my own terms kan? saya pun ada hak jugak takmo tengok muka awak or pikir pasal awak on hari sabtu & ahad saya kan? saya pun ada hak nak rest kan?
aiyohhhhhhhhhhhhh... problem btol lahhhhh...
sombong problem, tak sombong pon problem :P
hmph. hmphhh!!!!
mr mott... mr mott la gi kawan ngan mamat tu? mr mott bawak mamat tu gi disney eh? mr mott bawak dia gi keroke skali okeh?
yeh mr mott, yeh?
"it meant the world to hold a bruising faith now its just a matter of grace"
Assalamualaikum kawan2~ ok, so.... seperti biasa, kerja adalah? well, work is madness. madness i say, MADNESS! hyah!
back in 2005 masa baru2 masuk keje, i was put under the customer training team. so kenalah men-terel-kan diri dengan design tools, sebab nak kena jadi trainer to the customers. sometimes customers would come to thank me, sometimes? they clap their hands when i close! ishkk!!! blushing machik! but sangat gembira la. people appreciate you kan *^-^*
after i got good in that, i had to maintain being a trainer, plus being one of the support engineers for the FAEs.
FAE: Field Application Engineer
they are the engineers who go out to the field, meet customers, hold meetings & discussion with the customers, the ones who handles customer's projects directly. so they have to know alot. and having to know alot, and having to cover alot of grounds, means that they don't have time with the details.
it is us, the AEs (Application Engineers) who help them when FAEs return with homeworks entrusted by the customers.
so AEs spend alot of time in the office, doing error analysis, performance comparison, circuit connection checking etc etc etc, does stuffs.
so i did that for some time. never had to go face to face with customers except for when i'm training them. other than that, i worked internally at the office. and that, is a comfort.
until april last year that is. when mr manager decided to put me in charge of the s.corp's helpdesk.
so since then, from zero interaction with outsiders, there i was, attending meeting with the supplier people, the customer, sometimes with all of the involved parties. and everywhere i go, why oh why am i the only female in the room? it intimidates ok??? :P
anyway, since then, there i was, sitting at the help desk at s.corp, thursday and friday every week, handling questions & problems, face to face with the customers :P live. in real time.
that was like, oilaaaaa~~~ gila ker????
i'm not japanese mind youuuuuu, what if i don't get what the customer is trying to say? and what if they ask me about things i don't know? i only know tools! devices? intellectual properties? high speed interfaces? i donno all that!? what am i gonna do if they ask me those?? can i just drop down and play dead? i'd very much like to do that, please?
but? time flies, and its been over a year now. i'm still alive, Alhamdulillah.
and now its adori-san, adori-san. sket2 adori-san. balek2 adori-san.
haiyoooohhh~~~ sangat manja lah customer saya.
so last friday, i was at the helpdesk as usual. the sales person from the supplier was with me. so it was way past over working hours, but we were still doing it, work i mean. and talking.
among other things, he kept apologizing. for the lack of help & team spirit from his firm's AEs. thing is, AE from supplier datang jugak, suppose nyer datang tolong, as a team. tapiiiii...? datang lambat, balik awal, haper pon tak buat :P so sumer case sapa yang kena handle? adori-san jugakkkkk... :P
and those makan gaji buta people will say what? oh yeah, they really love their adori-san :P
ahah, hah, nope, not funny :P
i do complain. but not to the supplier la, to my bosses. yela... orang2 distributor mana leh kong ajor ngan supplier. kena termination kang tak pepasal jek :P
but the workload is just TOO MUCH. my partner FAE helps me out with some la, but still... he has his own load too kan...
mr sales is a very good man. with all his workload, he still monitors the incoming and outgoing emails, and he saw the number of emails and cases i was handling, and at the hours of my sent emails. so he kept apologizing. and i kept saying its ok.
turns out with all the workload, he was worried if i'd get sick, i later find out, that he went seeing one of the customer earlier in the day. and the customer was asking him about adori-san from the helpdesk.
adori-san orang mana? (adori-san orang kajang lohh) apsal adori-san bleh cakap nihonggo cam nihonjin? (sebab adori-san dah melapok kat nihong dah berapa kurun lohh) adori-san orang distributor ker orang supplier? (adori-san orang disty lohh) adori-san itu, adori-san ini. adori-san, adori-san, adori-san.
as it turns out... rupanya last2 customer tu cakap kat mr sales:
"adori-san ga herupu desuku ni iru kagiri, watashi wa X igai no FPGA wa tsukaimasen!"
selagi adori-san ada kat helpdesk, saya takkan guna FPGA lain selain dari FPGA brand X!
i couldn't hide my delightness. i was grinnning and clapping my hands lightly.
"hontou desukaaaa?" are you serious??
"hontou desuyoooo" dead serious.
"sonna koto ittetandesuka?" he said that?
"un. itteta." yep. he said that.
"iyaaaaaaaaa, ureshii desuneeee" huhuuuuu... sangat gembiraaaa...
"hontouni arigatai desuyo. adori-san no okagede okyakusan ga bokura no seihin wo tsukattekurete. itsumo arigatou gozaimasu." we're so grateful to you, thanks to adori-san customers uses our products, thanks so much for always.
"iya iya iya, minna ga win-win dekitara, watashi ikura demo gambaremasu!" no, no, no, if everybody gets a win-win, then i'll be working my ass off no matter how much the load!
time under customer training dulu, customer datang cakap time kaseh jek pon dah gembira. ini kan pulak bila customer bagitau supplier yang dia takkan berubah device selagi adori-san ada. hwahhhhh... golek2 machikkkk...
me & mr sales walked to the station and rode the train together after that. talked about lotsa things.
i have this perangai. dulu time muda belia, late teens early twenties, i'm more like wanting to show off the things i know. gotta be better than anyone else, can't let anybody take me for a fool kan?
but now i have this perangai: tau pun buat2 tatau. belakon bodoh :P
i learned over time that its like one of the eastern manners. when a person beriya2 bercerita, its rude la if you cut the person off by telling the person off that you already know, or you know more. esp when the person you're talking to is a senior.
anddddd.... i learned over time, that it is a way to dig out the other person's opinion, without revealing your own. its a good way to feel out the other person so that you'll know how to position yourself around him/her.
its a good method of being humble too. esp when the other person is older than you, the other person will kinda take you under his/her wing. everybody have something they wanna pass on or teach everybody right? i guess, its more clever when you make it obvious that you wanna learn. you gain info and knowledge, and you help boost the other person's confidence. you make the other party feel good, and its a win-win. and i like win-win situations, really.
so we walked, and talked, and i got to know more about him, his opinions on things, his experiences, and the real stance suppliers should stand on in a business.
we got to know each other more, and this kinda understanding between supplier & disty, i'd like to think its a plus to the business *^-^*
one word came into mind after work that day. my 4th year as a "society person" (its a slang in japanese for orang bekerja, a person who works is a person who contributes to the society cuz well, we pay our taxes right?) and i finally got it. i finally got what anybody and everybody under a firm has to have in order to have the right to belong in that firm: "value of existence".
that you are valuable. that it has to be you and nobody else.
now that customer said it, and the supplier knows it, i think i belong and Alhamdulillah, i can safely say, the payslip adori-san receives every end of the month, adori-san earned.
Alhamdulillahi Rabbil Alaminnnn...!
*^-^*
but nothing comes free right? skang adori-san takleh cuti lama2 cuz sumer orang takut kalau adori-san cuti lama2 kang customer lari :P hwehhhhh...
and that is why, adori-san takleh balik kajang this summer tsk tsk tsk...
Alhamdulillah, i am working for a sincere, hard working, bribe free, internal politics free firm.
Alhamdulillah, all of us look out for one another, and we help out one another just as much as we straightly point out the mistakes another does, and we share pointers.
Alhamdulillah, we only have to do our jobs, and when we do good we will be rightly evaluated, and appreciated without having to be in good political terms with whoever.
for all this, i have none other to thank but Allah.
and insyaAllah, selagi ada orang yang appreciate adori-san, wants adori-san in their team, believes that if they put adori-san in position to help customers, then customers will choose us as their main support, adori-san will stay and enjoy the ride. and adori-san will work hard for an all win result, insyaAllahhhh...
"it meant the world to hold a bruising faith now its just a matter of grace"
edri vented out at8/02/2008 03:00:00 PM |
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
"Adriana"
assalamualaikum kawan2! when i visited little leppit's (fluff)book today, i saw one of my (fluff)friends left a message for me on the wall.
i was like... ???
an art for me? whatever could she mean?? so i went over to her (fluff)book, and saw it! a pleasant, pleasant surprise, in the midst of work madness, she made me speechless and almost made me cry, tskkk!!
yesterday was the video, and today this.
i gotta say, someone got my back when i least expect it *^-^* and i thank Allah for that, for the lift of spirit, Alhamdulilah.
*^-^*
(fluff)people, among the sweetest and the kindest, and the talented and the creative ones!
hyahhhh~~~ work is a drag, tapi saya sangat gembiraaaa~~~!!!
*^-^*
hek hek, hek hek hek!
"it meant the world to hold a bruising faith now its just a matter of grace"
edri vented out at7/16/2008 12:37:00 AM |
Monday, July 14, 2008
little leppit is from???
i've been around the world hey hey!
nyahaks!
assalamualaikum kawan2! tsk tsk! sudah baper lama tak update huh?
anyway, i have been in a cocoon called work these past months. all work and no play, no taking pictures, no jalan2, no nothing. yes, it has been and it still is, crazy :P
i came back grumpy today, from yet another dateline chasing mad day at office, but i found a message from a dear (fluff)friend with a video attached and?? she turned my day into a great one, she did! *^-^*
sangat gembiraaaaaa~~~!! that someone would actually feature little leppit in her video, hyahhhhh~~~ shooooo shwiiiiitttt ok???
so do you have a facebook account? do you have (fluff)friend? if you do, then come visit little leppit! *^-^* we'll come visit you back, insyaAllah, we'll try our best! *^-^*
Bismillahir Rahmanir Rahim.
Hadith Qudsi 11:
On the authority of Abu Harayrah (may Allah be pleased with him) from the Prophet (peace be upon him), who said: Allah (mighty and sublime be He) said:
Spend (on charity), O son of Adam, and I shall spend on you.
It was related by al-Bukhari (also by Muslim).
may we never be stingy, may we never forget that all that the things we have are from Allah, and we should spend it the way Allah likes it to be spent, Aaaaaminnn~~~~ ^-^
datte datte~~~ okane nante, tenka no mawari mono ni suginai datsuuu no!
nyahah!
"it meant the world to hold a bruising faith now its just a matter of grace"
edri vented out at7/14/2008 11:57:00 PM |
Saturday, March 08, 2008
original delicious "source"
Bismillahir Rahmanir Rahim
me, the comm team leader, cci team leader. we three were at lunch after the monthly audio-video-broadcast meeting at the supplier's.
we sat down, ordered and we were fiddling with the things on the table, when we went: aiks?
original delicious "source"???
and we had a good laugh about it.
^-^
haiyohhhh... yappa eigo wa muzukashii ka?? ganbare nippon jin!
^-^
Hadith Qudsi #10:
On the authority of Abu Harayrah (may Allah be pleased with him) from the Prophet (peace be upon him), who said: Allah (mighty and sublime be He) says:
Fasting is Mine and it I who give reward for it. [A man] gives up his sexual passion, his food and his drink for my sake.
Fasting is like a shield, and he who fasts has two joys: a joy when he breaks his fast and a joy when he meets his Lord.
The change in the breath of the mouth of him who fasts is better in Allah's estimation than the smell of musk.
-related by al-Bukhari (also by Muslim, Malik, at-Tirmidhi, an-Nasa'i and Ibn Majah).
reminder untuk edri dan juga untuk kawan2. insyaAllah. Amin.
assalamualaikum kawan2.
^-^
"it meant the world to hold a bruising faith now its just a matter of grace"
edri vented out at3/08/2008 02:55:00 PM |
Friday, February 22, 2008
on work
*this piece was written last wednesday, 20th feb.
Bismillahir Rahmanir Rahim.
i was in hon atsugi this morning for a tel conference.
i'm in oosaki now, preparing the text and data for tomorrow's training session i'm gonna be teaching, while? waiting for the linux machine to become available. i'm supposed to do an error analysis on that machine :P
and i'm sleepy, sleepy, sleepy... ghhhh...
printer's running, linux machine's still occupied, think maybe i'll write about work a little bit. well work was all that was going on in my no-life life, so.. bear with me if you will eh? :P
every end of the year, and every start of the year, what can i say, its the busiest time. we all go crazy every time.
number of sales and profits will be totalled, and then, compared to the master plan.
since we've been terminated by the old supplier, and went hand-in-hand with the new one, 70% of our firm's income had to be rebuilt from zero.
hence, things weren't reflecting good on the stock holder's eyes. lose their confidence and we'll lose them. without them, we'd have no money to operate, which means total shutdown. which means, bankruptcy.
and that's a no-no. right? total no-no.
it was back in nov 2005 when all that happened, and at the end of 2007, our numbers are still red while we promised the stock holders we'd be black by then.
* red = loss (minus numbers which means we're losing money and that not good)
black = profit (plus number which means we're gaining money and that's good)
so we were still red. unless... see, there's a way around it, but it would need a total undertansing and appoval from everyone. and everyone means every single ONE of us. even the new faces.
and? well, we all agreed to our bonus being cut. the higher rank you are on the ladder, the more you'll have to contribute. which the most tops, they lose 25%. the lowest of us, we lose 3%.
we had a big whole firm meeting and all, and mr ceo was careful while explaining the whys and all.
the thing about us is, where i work, one thing we share is, loyalty. we're quite thick on that. we'd do anything to save this firm. we complain about our pay, or our working hours, or the organization and stuff, but i guess deep down inside, we all love it.
its a firm, but its also like a school, y'know? we all grow together here. we look out for each other. i know that i could earn more other places, but i love where i'm now. with my moody big sisters, and take-the-lead big bros? i can't ask for more.
so that was that. our bonus are gonna be cut. then came the appraisal. y'know... the routine session with the supervisor, looking back on accomplishments, and discussing on future career paths, or plans... and then being told about how much for bonus.
remember when i told you that they're gonna raise my rank and that i'm gonna get a raise? they kept their promise, Alhamdulillah.
and then supervisor told me about bonus. i said, yeah i know we're gonna get less, bummer, but its all for a greater purpose, so its ok. i'm happy with whatever bonus i get.
she said, yeah... i'm so sorry about that.
wha-? her bonus is gonna get cut more than mine and there she was, apologizing :P
so i said, no, no, no... hope we can make things better next time, winky wink! ;)
we laughed and everything and she told me about how my bonus was determined.
s.corp, bla bla bla... help desk, bla bla bla... won projects bla bla bla... incoming feedback bla bla bla... bla bla bla... bla bla bla...
and finally, the amount.
Trully, Subhanallah, Alhamdulillah.
Ya Allah...
bonus cut 3%, sales number red. and i am still at the lowest rank.
but what they decided to give me, equals to the last 2 bonuses i received, combined. tskkk!!
"but this is almost twice than what i always get?" "it is?" "yeah. this is after -3%??" "yeah. well this is how much we appreciate you adori," said my supervisor with a smile.
i guess i had a confused face stuck on my skull, she said, "what? adoriiiii... you should be happyyyyy...!!!"
"well, yeah, i am.. just.. hmh."
she laughed :P
lastly, i said thank you. and she said, "let's do better next term." and of course, i joyfully said ok.
ayoyohhhh... kan dahhhh... janji do better next term... kyaaaaaa...!! pensan la machik camniiii...!!!
anyway, so that's the story about work.
i still have it, nak simpan buat umrah, pegi blaja ngan mak :) takes some time, but insyaAllah... Aminnn...
well, one thing is for sure, they're gonna expect more from me now on, and that actually is not good news :P
but i think maybe i have the sweetest managers and supervisors. and i think i like being on this team. the application engineer team. the s team.
:)
mail inbox dah menjerit2 mintak perhatian. so i think maybe i'll get back to work now.
:)
"it meant the world to hold a bruising faith now its just a matter of grace"
edri vented out at2/22/2008 05:07:00 PM |
Monday, February 18, 2008
back
Bismillahir Rahmanir Rahim
hyahhhhh....
assalamualaikum kawan2.... yep yep, i know. bad, baaaaaaaaaad edri. tskkk!!!
sorry for the long silence.
there was work, and then there were some other personal plus alpha. both played big roles on keeping me off blogging and flickring, and fotopaging.
thanks to brother swamibu from flickr for inviting me onto facebook lah tapi. if not, i'd be like : poof! disappeared off the face of the planet, yikes! :P
anyway... i'm on facebook now. do add me as a friend if you wish ^-^ friendster too... flickr too... which ever suits. i'm every where on the net :P bersepah2! like i'm crazy for attention :P
aaaaaaaaaaanywayyyyyyy... again i apologize for disappearing for quite a while there. and thank you for the comments despite the hiatus. thanks so much really, you guys really make me wanna come back fast ^-^
insyaAllah, by Allah's permission, i will continue sharing with you the 40 Hadith Qudsi, and insyaAllah, other islamic knowledge if He permits. insyaAllah...
so without further delay, these are the words of Imam Ibn al-Qayyim (rahimahullah). he writes:
mankind, with regard to the performance of their prayers, are on five levels:
The First: this is the level of one who is negligent and wrongs his soul. he is the one who falls short in performing wudu' properly, performing the prayer on time and within its specified limits, and in fulfilling its essential pillars.
The Second: this is the level of one who guards his habit of offering his prayers on time and within their specified limits, who fulfils their essential pillars and performs his wudu' with care.
however, his striving (in achieving the above) is wasted due to disturbances in his thoughts during prayer that distract him and turn his attention to other preoccupations and concerns.
The Third: this is the level of one who guards his prayers within the specified limits, fulfils their essential pillars and strives within himself to repel the disturbances in his thoughts and extraneous concerns.
he is busy struggling against his enemy (syaitan) so that syaitan does not steal from the prayer.
because of this, he is engaged in (both) prayer and struggle (jihad).
The Fourth: this is the level of one who carries out the prayer, completing and perfecting its due rights and essential pillars, who performs it within its specified limits and with his heart fully engrossed in safeguarding its rights and specified limits, so that nothing of his prayer is wasted.
his whole concern is directed towards its performance, its completion and its perfection as it should be.
his heart is immersed in the prayer and in servitude to his Lord, the Exalted.
The Fifth: this is the level of one who carries out the prayer like the one mentioned above. however, on top of this, he has taken and placed his heart in front of his Lord, looking towards Him with his heart in anticipation, filled with his love and his might, as if he sees and witnesses Allah.
the misgivings, thoughts and preoccupations have vanished and the veil between him and his Lord is lifted.
the difference between this person and others with respect to the prayer is greater than the distance between the heavens and the earth.
this person is busy with his Lord, delighted with Him.
the people whose performance of prayer is at the first level will be punished, those at the second will be held to account, those at the third will have their sins and shortcomings expiated, those at the forth fourth will be rewarded, and those at the fifth will be close to their Lord, because they will receive the portion of the one who makes his prayer the delight and pleasure of His eye.
whoever makes his prayer the delight and pleasure of his eye will have the nearness of his Lord make the delight and pleasure of His Eye in the Hereafter.
he will also be made a pleasure to the eye in this world, since whoever makes Allah the pleasure of his eye in this world, every other eye will become delighted and pleased with him.
Hadith Qudsi #9: on the authority of Abu Hurayrah (may Allah be pleased with him) from the Prophet (peace be upon him), who said: Allah (Mighty and Sublime be He) says:
the first of his actions for which a servant of Allah will be held accountable on the Day of Resurrection will be his prayers.
if they are in order, then he will have prospered and succeeded: and if they are wanting, then he will have failed and lost.
if there is something defective in his obligatory prayers, the Lord (glorified and exalted be He) will say: see if My servant has any supererogatory prayers with which may be completed that which was defective in his obligatory prayers. then the rest of his actions will be judged in likely fashion.
-related by at-Tirmidhi (also by Abu Dawud, an-Nasa'i, Ibn Majah and Ahmad).
where am i on this? i have to admit that my prospects aren't good. at all.
Astagfirullahal Azim.
i pray that Allah give me strength, i pray that Allah show me the way. Aminnn...
Rab bij'alnee muqeemas salati wa min zurriyatee Rabbana wa taqabbal du'a, Rabba naghfirlee wali walidayya wa lil mu'mineena yawma yaqumul hisab.
oh Lord, make me and my children keep up prayers, our Lord, accept our prayer, our Lord, forgive me and my parents and all the Believers on the Day of Judgement.
Amin, Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin.
i know i'm late, but still, happy 2008, and most importantly, happy 1429 frens.
words are cheap but insyaAllah, i hope to make 1429 a better year. let us all do that ek? ^-^
insyaAllah, Amin.
"it meant the world to hold a bruising faith now its just a matter of grace"
